singing shalalala

come on get higher by matt nathanson is the cutest song ever.
"pull me down hard, and drown me with love"

so i was video chatting with stephen rodriguez.
then i switched to gophrey, and his mom kept going in his room.
that made my night, and i talked to her in tagalog.
well actually, i typed. cause my lame mic won't work.
then i switched to cousin michelle, who i haven't seen in a long time.
and my mic started working !

hahaha but then it lagged my computer.
so i just changed my myspace song to matt nathanson.
ah, nice nice song (:

take time to realize

by cathy nguyen is what i currently hear.
she has an amazing voice.
i wish i can sing like that.

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is.
Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

dayumnnn.

long time no write.

annyways, today was a blast.
study groups are the best.
specially when you got the right people.
and money, and johnny rockets.
HELL YEAH to route 66.

best day of the week so far.
(:

stress relief

last week was super intense. i am HAPPY that this week was easy, fun, and fast !
it was stress-free and i loved it.

especially today.
i got my gown for choir, finally. then went to jolibee after school !
then starbucks, then alexis's house with linda, jon, and stephen.
ate, had a campfire, made smores, roasted weiners. hahaha.
tonight was really fun, and when i got home, i smelled like nothing but smoke.
i just took a shower, so im clean now. haha.
i thank stephen, well actually mrs. ramos, for the ride home.

hot dayumnnn

the weather is so weird, i swear.
its cold in the morning, then it gets hot later on.

so my fish nemo died last night.
im pretty sad about it. but hey, he lasted two weeks !
and i got him from the harvest festival. well, i WON him :D
and my friend jon is making fun of me, cause when i went to check if it really is dead, i blew on it.
hahah, lamee.

i need to start sleeping early.
i try to sleep before midnight.
i get like, four or five hours of sleep. and i usually need ten or eleven to be active.
unless i get some nice hot chocolate, then im good (:

life is so fucking hard

when you can't drive.
when you don't have a car.
when you have way too many homework.
when you have the worst teachers in the whole fucking world.
when you can't even go out.
when you don't have any money.
when you don't get what you want,
and you see others get what they want.
when you're not skinny.
when you can't wear nice clothes.
when you don't have any time to have fun.
when you can't go anywhere because no one can drive you.
when you have alot of chores.
when no one understands you.

i am so sick of crying about these things.
whatever i do, nothing seems to make me feel better.
things keep getting worse.
i feel like a failure. i feel like im not doing my best in school, but i AM.
i try to dedicate all my time studying my ass off.

im trying to SAVE money.
i want way too many things that i can't even have.
and its HARD.
to feel like this.
take my position.
and you'll see.

this causes stress.
this causes depression.
this causes all these emotions im feeling right now.
and im fucking PMSing at the same time.

WHY ?!