life is so fucking hard

when you can't drive.
when you don't have a car.
when you have way too many homework.
when you have the worst teachers in the whole fucking world.
when you can't even go out.
when you don't have any money.
when you don't get what you want,
and you see others get what they want.
when you're not skinny.
when you can't wear nice clothes.
when you don't have any time to have fun.
when you can't go anywhere because no one can drive you.
when you have alot of chores.
when no one understands you.

i am so sick of crying about these things.
whatever i do, nothing seems to make me feel better.
things keep getting worse.
i feel like a failure. i feel like im not doing my best in school, but i AM.
i try to dedicate all my time studying my ass off.

im trying to SAVE money.
i want way too many things that i can't even have.
and its HARD.
to feel like this.
take my position.
and you'll see.

this causes stress.
this causes depression.
this causes all these emotions im feeling right now.
and im fucking PMSing at the same time.

WHY ?!