whoa whoaaaa

i just realized i haven't been updating, haha.
things are heating up, cause women's golden state is in like.. TWO FREAKING DAYS. yeah, that's right. we're gonna be competing at san diego this coming friday the 20th. wish us luck ! PRAY FOR OUR NAME TO BE CALLED. doesn't matter if it isn't first. i doubt it. hahah. we're so lucky that roddy gave us the required piece really early. so we got to work on it longer. damn, our new york tour is a week from TODAY. i can't believe it. this is the first time i'm gonna be away from home, alone, for a whole week. i'm pretty nervous, hahah. i started packing. so far i have half of my stuffs packed and it's 20 lbs, i think that's pretty good. the max is 5o, and i'm gonna try to keep it 40. i just can't wait for the times square shopping. i really hope i get enough pocket money. i won't eat that much. hahaha. i'll be getting my sadies shirts in NY, so no one else is gonna have the same outfit as us :D. gah, i also gotta get my sisters some pasalubongs. and IF i have enough money, then i'll buy a couple of key chains for some of my friends. ah, might as well just not eat and save my money. hahah. MY SISTER STILL OWES ME 10 DOLLARS. muhahaha. right now, i have 40. i used to have 100, but then i used it for sadies planning and tickets. so i gotta save for my shirt, and picturesssss. i already know who's group i'm with. i'm just worried about the rides for now. but i think i already reserved someone. hahaha.

now playing : simple things - usher.

" it's the simple things in life we forget.
you hear her talking but don't hear what she says.
why do you make some things so easy so complicated.
searching for what's right in front of your face
but you can't see it. "

FUUUUUDGEEEEE. i wanna runnnn. i need a running buddy. someone who won't leave me. hahaha. i've been wanting to go running, but i don't want to go alone. i need to get in shape. gahd. i hate running, but i love the feeling after. it feels, good. knowing that you've accomplished something. i wish i woke up early everyday. early enough to go for a run, at least a quick one. i miss rice, i forgot what it tastes like. but i actually feel good without rice. i feel a LITTLE more confident about myself, but not really. my goal : run.

amen.