last day of january

school is starting to get better now, although i'm disappointed i have a C in chemistry -___-

thanks to our original teacher. those subs were better... except grandpa kreichbaum. haha.

i wish i was lucky enough to find a 4-leaf clover. i've been searching for one. but hopefully that day will come.

i don't know why, but i've been feeling really different lately. i don't know if it's my period or not. i doubt it though, haha. just thinking about alot of stuffs lately. there's just something bugging me and i just can't get what it is.

maybe i have an idea, but i don't know. hopefully i'll find out soon.

hopefully.

EGH. i'm so curious about my grades. i have no idea what i have for english, but im so fucking happy i'm out of myer's hell class. damn. then chemistry.. stupid teacher. i HAD a B when she wasn't here. now that she's back, i have a C, thaaaanks. choir, i hope i have an A. haha. which reminds me, i gotta memorize all my music tonight or tomorrow. disneyland soon. then festival at san diego, then NEW YORK (: sign language is an A. nothing to talk about in this class.. haha. asl show in march, come watch me (: algebra twooo, i'm happy with my grade ! yes, i actually have a B in math. haha. and i'm starting to like math now. unbelievable huh ? lastly, us history.. or what i like to call USH. easy A. i've had cool history teachers. donovan last year, hancock this year. i miss donovan alot though, he was my favorite teacher. i think i had the second highest grade in that class, first was charlsea (: hahah.

so i'm just curious about my english grade. i hope it's at least a B, damn. but an A is better. haha. i know i failed his stupid literature midterm final cause it was so damn hard. i'm trying to lessen my potty-mouth habit cause i noticed i've been cussin alot lately, and for me, that's not good. that's not even me.

so my mission for now : POTTY-TRAIN MY BABY SISTER.

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz.

up and down

this week had been SOO hectic for me.
i had to take care of so much things, especially my request for a new teacher.
i swear, ayala's front office is full of bitches and hoes that need some attitude adjustment and nicer haircuts.
bitches can't stop students from petitioning for a new damn teacher.
i'll do everything i can just to get out of one of my classes, shit.

so yesterday was pretty much one of the best fridays i've had this year.
first period, we had a socratic seminar and a review of three stories. i got called on to summarize moby dick, and i did okay. i'm glad i read the story cause i didn't read the other two. hhahaahhh. then i talked for a little tiny bit on the socratic seminar, but hey, it's better than nothing.
second period, all we did was notes and review. i like chemistry alot, but the teacher is just ugh. nuff said.
third period, we worked on our required golden state song, tota pulchra es. we sound pretty good and waaay better compared to madrigal feaste. ew.
fourth period, was game day. we played some new board game that took us 15 minutes just to read and understand the instructions. it was fun.
fifth period, we just did a review, and the teacher assigned us our first group project. hahahhh.
sixth period, was the usual... boring but interesting. arguing, discussing, sleeping, laughing, and alot more.
after school, me and aileen and derek went to the shoppes, thanks to chloe for giving us a ride (:
so we ate at chipotle cause we've been craving it for a loooooong ass time. then we went to forever XXI and aileen went shopping for herself and her cousin's birthday. then we decided to walk around, and we met up with jeff jeff and gerry. they invited us to go to forever XXI with them so we can help pick out clothes for jeffjeff. haha. while he was shopping and looking around, me, aileen and gerry kept sneaking a bra in jeff's binder. funny. thennn we walked around, went to the fountain, went to b&bw to wash my hands HAHAH, went to victoria's secret to put on some pure seduction, then went to barnes and nobles. aaaaaaaaaaand we just hung out till 7. then aileen takes me home, thank you aileen, and i do nothing... -___-. then jon picks me up and we went to alexis's house cause she was inviting us for dinner. then alan comes, and we aaaaaaaaate chocolate. thennnnnnnnn played mad gab and got bored of it. hahah. so we decided to play candy land. i figured out how much i suck at that game, damn gingerbread man. so i fell asleep on the floor till it was near midnight when jon took me home, thank you jon. so far friday was goood.

unfortunately, today was gay.
i'm getting so sick and tired of my lola (grandma) complaining how i'm always out, and i always have group projects and study groups. WHAT CAN I FUCKING DO ?! i'm trying to get good grades, that's why i'm always at barnes and nobles at the shoppes, and NO i never get tired of that fucking place !
goddammit she makes me so fucking mad when she does that.
and this morning while i was eating breakfast with my mom and dad, she goes on and mentions how i was at the shoppes till seven. WHAT THE FUCK man. i need freedom. i'm already sad that i can't drive and i don't have my license, and i don't have money. she's making everything worse. makes me so fucking depressed how my grandma is pretty much a tattle tale, that sometimes, i don't even know if i should tell her my secrets anymore. i'm so fucking disappointed and angry at her. i'm just gonna stay in my room the whole day today, and focus on my schoolwork. fuck.

first post of 2009 ?

wow, i just realized i haven't posted anything since the new years.
now i am, and i'm gonna write about my previous days/week of school.

coming back from winter vacation, which was only two weeks, school felt slooooowwwww. the semester is ending in two weeks, so that means teachers would be ready to pile loads of work on us. i still gotta memorize the rest of my soliloquy AND find the hamlet dvd so i can learn how to sing it. IF i sing it, i'll get extra credit. and i NEED extra credit in my english class, damn. im starting to like math more than english now. i get really nervous in the class and i feel like throwing up. i don't like public speaking. im not that kind of person. im not comfortable enough to argue on those debates. or those stupid socratic seminar. or the graded discussions. it's fucking bullshit. I HATE ENGLISH MORE THAN MATH now. thanks to my junior year, especially my damn teacher.
chemistry is going fine. i have a B, and that's pretty good. especially being in an honors class. so im glad. but the thing is that our original teacher is back, after being gone almost the whole semester and having 8 subs. she's pretty boring. that class used to be fun, especially when ms. haynes came. but now that stevens is back, it's alllllll quiet and boring. when i look around the class, everyone is just staring at her, with no expression at all. some are talking, but the fun is between those people, not with the teacher -___-.
choir is going great. we're finally starting to sound great on tota pulchra es, meaning we'll sweep those other choirs off of the stage in golden state ;D we're receiving more song pieces now because there's alot ahead of us. there's disneyland, new york, and alot more concerts. i'm happy because roddy decided to pick two songs from the philippines. pretty hard and catchy, but i like it.
sign language. my teacher just told me that our song, letters from war, which i signed with alyssa and vivian, is gonna be in the asl variety show. i'm kinda happy because that means we did good in our song. i checked gradealert and it said i got 100%. woo.
algebra twooo, is going okay. i'm understanding it. like what i said about english, im starting to like math more than english. my math teacher is weird, but the class is funny. all they do is make fun of the teacher and the teacher gets uncomfortable and paranoid. hahaha. the best part about that class is i get to spend it with brandon ho. together we fail, or pass. we always fool around, and at the same time help each other out. i'm glad we're in the same class. without him, i'd die in math.
us history, as usual, we never do anything in this class. we've never talked about the book. i guess we just have to study and teach ourselves. all we do is talk about random stuffs and it'll just keep going and going untill the class ends. i guess that's fine. i'm doing pretty good in this class too. i think i have an A, so woo.

2009 is going by okay ish so far.
i'll see.
expect the unexpected...

2008 is coming to an end

i can't really tell whether this year went by fast or slow, but either way it was a good year.
i made so many friends, i lost count. most of them are in choir, which i am really happy to be in.
it's like a family, and i'm really excited that we get to go to new york !

nothing really great happened to me this year. still no luck finding the right guy for me, sound cheesy but it's true. i feel lonely sometimes too, but not only me. all the single ladies out there. hahah.

my break so far is okay ish, the first time i hung out after getting out of school was last monday the 22nd (happy birthday kristen jabson). i went to jon reyes's house to celebrate alan yoo's birthday, which was the next day. alexis was there, alan, vivian, jojo, and jon of course. we just played rockband and looked at jon's amazing fish tank full of different kinds of fish, it was awesome.

the next day, which was the 23rd (happy birthday alan yoo), i went christmas gift shopping with my mom, then she took me to fantastic sams to get my haircut. i cut it short cause i was getting tired of my long hair, and it was dying too -__-. i also wanted it short cause you know, maybe i wanted to cut off the past and now that a new is year is coming, i'm gonna start off fresh and new.
after that, i went to the shoppes with aileen, her boyfriend derek, nina, jerald, and jeff jeff cause we were gonna watch the boat parade. we ended up walking around the shoppes a zillion times, and just sitting down and "talking" in front of barnes and nobles. it was a cold night, but the hotness of my friends made it warmer ;D.

then there was christmas eve. me and my whole family went to my cousin sean's house at chino. it was fun, but it got a little eh in the middle. there were adults, my sisters, and my cousins. all my cousins were younger than me and they were just playing games of their own. me and my sister were the oldest kids so we just sat around, took pictures, and our uncle offered us some good red wine, which i forgot the name. but he said that it was stronger than his beer. hahah. i didn't feel anything, neither did my sister. but she was told that her face was pink/red during midnight mass. hahah.

CHRISTMAS ! happy birthday jesus. woke up early for gift opening (: i got good stuffs, but the best present ever was money. isn't it ? i mean, if you get money, you can get whatever you want. it's better than just getting something you might not even use. see ? hahah. then cousins michelle and michael came over that night. watched some dvds on my sister's laptop.

the next day, michelle and michael came over again. we played videogames then we went to go watch the curious case of benjamin button at harkins that night. then we went back to my house and they slept over.

theee next day, my sister, michelle, and michael went out. i wanted to come with them, but i wanted to go shopping. so i just went to dsw with my mom, dad, baby sister, lolo, and lola. we ate at mami king :D yes, your typical filipino family. then when we arrived home, my mom takes me out to go shopping. we went to fashion joy, which is one of the stores with the cutest outfits. then kohls. the only thing i bought was a cardigan from kohls which was on sale for 12 dollars. then we went to go check out FOREVER 21 :D i swear, that's the best place ever. i wish i had a $1,000 gift card for that place. hahaha. i have my eye on a jacket ;D

theeeeeee next day, which was the 28th, was sunday. i just went to church at 3:00 cause i had to sing for the choir. pretty rockin christmas songs. i wanted my mom to take me to forever 21 so i could get that jacket i wanted, but she said she'll take me the next day.

the next day, mother did take me to forever 21. but unfortunately, that jacket didn't have my size. cause i'm a fatass. HAHAH -___-. but i got another cute jacket, and i like the color. i can't tell what the color is, but i'm guessing it's indigo. then we walked around the shoppes. we stopped by reflections, ae outfitters, sanrio, etc...

i decided that with the money i got from christmas, i'd hide half and spend half. i need to save money. haha.
so school is back on monday and i have a couple of homework to do.
the main thing i need to worry about right now is memorizing my damn soliloquy that my english teacher assigned me. i have to go look for a dvd of hamlet because my english teacher assigned me the singing scene. i don't have to sing it but he said if i did, i'd get extra credit. so i think i'm gonna sing it cause i NEED that extra credit for his class. i'm inches away from a C. i probably have that C already -___-. gaahddd....

SO i hope that next year will be way better than this year.



HAHHAHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.. (:

last week of school for 2008

the last week of school for me has been
stressing ?
fun ?
boring ?
unorganized ?
yeah, probably all of the above.
the week before was madrigal feaste week. so i had to time whatsoever to do my homework.
that means i had ALOT of work to do that weekend, and i did.
sheeesh. i had to do a 5-page report, 15-slide powerpoint, 10 ssr journals, book report, and alot more.
i miss madrigal feaste though. all those after school rehearsals, and work days.
they were tiring, but they were fun. i get to hang out and get to know more people everytime.
but now that madrigal feaste is over, there's no more practices.
BUT nothing to worry about cause there's alot more ahead of me.
there's the NEW YORK tour in march, disneyland, and alot more concerts.
i love choir, i really do. i wish i took it last year to this year could've been my third.
i felt really accomplished on the last week of school
cause i managed to finish alllll those work assigned to me.
the only subject i pretty much have to worry about right now is english.
i feel like im doing bad. i have a B- and that's not good.
i need to step it up and raise it up to an A because i don't want to be inches away from a C.
i already have a C and that's in math.
oh well, when we get back, imma do as much extra credit as i can.
so much exciting things happened too.
i helped out my friend to ask my friend out, and i got a video of it too (:
check it out at yoredublo
i like seeing my friends happy, it makes me happy too.
now, who wants to go boy fishing with me ?
sometimes, i just feel lonely. and i freaking hate it when there's PDA everywhere you look, especially when you're feeling like this. i usually don't mind, really i don't. but everyone is getting together, and it's not only me that notices that. haha, it's pretty funny too.but hey, i guess i'll just wait, right ??
damn boys.
idk. i like someone right now. it used to be just a crush, but now it's growing and growing. i wanna tell him, but im scared. half my friends say i should, half say i shouldn't. i really don't know anymore. for now, i'll just keep it to myself. cause i know for sure he doesn't like me back. i guess i don't care. this always happens to me, so i'm pretty much used to it now. i just hate it when it happens, you know ? so i don't know. i'll see when the right time comes. i'll try to not get my hopes up too high, even if i already have. just wait...
like what brandon said, one day, i'll find the perfect guy for me. one day...

jealous

Jealous of the girl who caught your eye
One of my darker days
When you looked at her where was I?
Shoulda been in her place
Here I am
All alone imagining what might have been
What could have been
If I had been there

Jealous of the one who'se arms are around you
If she's keeping you satisfied
Jealous of the one who finally found you
Made your sun and your stars collide
La la la la la la la
She's a very very lucky girl
La la la la la la la

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this is not my day =[
only shoppes was the fun part. everything else was horrible.
i just found out that my mp3 player broke, and im fucking pissed.
i have to wake up early tomorrow and go to school to set up for madrigal feaste.
GO TO FUCKING MADRIGAL FEASTE cause we need people to watch.
i have so much effing homework.
choir teacher is testing soprano 1s next week.
myers told us that in two weeks, he'll make us memorize 40+ lines from hamlet and perform in front of class.
i have a test for chemistry next week.
i have a 2-chapter test for us history next week.
i have a 5-page report and a 15-slides powerpoint due in two weeks about the freaking fall of the iron curtain.
i have to read new moon and do a book report on it due in two weeks.
i have an essay due next week for fucking english.
great.
just fucking great. all this stress causes ugly fucking pimples.